In all honesty - I always know that i'm going to hate November. Well, not necessarily hate. But I know I will have a complex relationship with this month. So many things to do yet so little time. I feel like I'm exhausted to the point where I just want to sleep and forget but my responsibilities keep dragging me so I just have to... go on. After all, I am not a person who doesn't do her job deliberately. I don't know why, it's just me and my morale. I can't just ditch responsibilities no matter how tempting it is.... god believe me I am so tempted couple of times but I just cant. Sometimes it feels like a good thing, sometimes it's not. I just ought to pray to God and believe in myself that I have what it takes to not only survive, but ace this November. My hardest November so far...... but at least I always survive every single obstacle in my live so far.