it will rain

every thing in this world has some turning points. sometimes it is at its highest peak, as we put our highest interest in that thing, but sometimes it has its own downfalls. maybe it's boredom, maybe you just have too much to handle. maybe you're just dead tired.

i don't know.

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i'm not going to give up. never. i'm not wishing for a break. i'm not regretting these paths i've chosen. i know the consequences and so this is me trying to get things done. sorry if the progress isn't as fast and pleasing as you guys hope. i'm now just trying to make the best... for everything.

but sometimes i wish for someone, who is willing to listen. 

the question is... who is that? :_

i don't wanna be whiny and i wanna be good on my own.

please let me be good on my own, cause everyone else is already with their problems.

i want to be good on my own, for once.

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"But i set fire to the rain
Watch it pour as i touched your face
Let it burn while i cry
Cause i heard it screaming out your name, your name.."
set fire to the rain

"i know i have a fickle heart

and loneliness

and a wandering eye

and heaviness in my head

but don't you remember

don't you remember

the reason you loved me before

please remember me once more.

when was the last time you thought of me

or have you completely erase me from your memory

i often think where i went wrong

the more i do the less i know.."

don't you remember

we're back to friends again. i've been thinking for the past two months about how it would be, after not talking to each other for ages. Contradictory to what i thought would happen, it happened pretty simple. We talk like we used to talk. As if nothing never happened. I feel like i'm back to 5 months ago. 

And though it's weird for me to say this, but i'm glad we're friends again. Just friends. It's better this way.

crows zero

yep i know i'm a bit too late to watch this movie just today, but i have no regret. Oh, maybe one, because it would've been amazing if i watched this earlier.

this is genji takiya, the main character of this movie.

So Genji is a son of a yakuza boss,and he transferred as a senior to suzuran all-boy high school with a goal to conquer the school and become the leader. Note that suzuran is a weird school, they have no lessons and is filled with soon-to-be yakuza. Each class has their leader which is the strongest in the class, but there is no conqueror  in the school. There is one person who is close to be the conqueror, named Serizawa Tamao, a third-year student.
So basically the story is about Genji who fights to be the conqueror of the school with helps from the others and some obstacles on his way. But i could promise you it's better than what you're imagining right now. It's fun to watch it especially if you like action comedy (the hard way, though) If you hate blood please just keep away from this movie. It contains a lot.
My favorite scene is when they dueled, Genji and Serizawa. It's insanely cool, and they're both equal so it's hard to pick which one you want to win. Anyway i like this scene because it seems real, not like some western movies where they fight but there are no blood or scars. NO fun at all.
Anyway i'm soooo gonna watch crows zero 2 and i will be waiting for crows zero 3!